It’s been a while since I have posted about my faith on this blog. It is very important to me to keep myself grounded by having my faith on the forefront of my mind. Being a young religious person is hard in today’s society. The extremists that are supposedly “following the practices of their religion” and the media paint this sacred practice in an extremely bad light. This makes it more important that the way one portrays themselves in society ever more difficult.
One of the hardest things about being at university is that you are constantly being challenged and at times ridiculed for believing in God. I can recall multiple times where I have been asked difficult questions regarding Christianity and I have honestly been scared to answer it fully.
I have always wondered whether not being able to clear questions that people throw at me was an indicator of not being a good Christian. After all, someone who has been following Christianity for years should in theory know a lot about it. It made me feel like a coward when I would shy away from questioning.
Recently I have begun to realise whether this is in fact cowardly behaviour or whether it was something deeper than that. You see, my faith is something that is really important to me. It is something that I hold very dear to my heart and it (has) carries(d) me through some tough times in my life. Imagine something that precious to me being challenged. Imagine having to be careful with what I say because the words that come out of my mouth can either entice you to become interested in Christianity or drive you even further away from it. This responsibility makes it extremely difficult for me to argue about my faith when group discussions are taking place. Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy to shut down narrow-minded individuals that think that everyone should be an atheist! But when it comes to the core values of my faith, I am scared to give an answer and tend to palm people off to a priest.
I don’t think this is necessarily a bad thing. Of course there will be some followers who are happy to engage in conversations and answer any doubts that non-believers may have. But to me, religion is something I cherish so much that I am afraid that my answer will deter people away from finding out the true happiness of believing in God.